side effect

Friday night after midterm
don't know why i got unexpect boring and depress...
need alcohol to release...
以為酒精可以帶來的釋放
結果卻在喝醉後無比的痛苦
像快死了一樣...
早上起床收拾昨晚的mess
像得了強迫症一樣拼命的想整理和洗東西
don't know what i'm thinking...
原本以為自己已經可以很會處理自己的無聊和沮喪了....
i still need to struggle with all of it....